His heart

I’m sitting in a coffee shop trying to collect my thoughts. Trying to process what I’ve seen and heard. Trying to comprehend the horrific realities I’ve seen recently. Trying not to break down crying in yet another public place.

The other night I was went out with a group into the street, bars, and clubs to encourage and bring truth to the prostitutes and strippers in this place. To tell them that they are loved and precious. To make friends, have conversations, and treat them like real humans. These girls were so warm and loving and welcoming. Each one of them was so excited to see us! I had a conversation with one girl and simply told her that she is so loved and so beautiful and she couldn’t accept it. She couldn’t believe it for herself. It pained me to see this reality, her reality. She is my age.

Another day this week I got to go to prison and visit an inmate from Thailand with the sole purpose of being her friend and sharing God’s heart for her. She was so sweet as we chatted, laughed, and prayed. I can’t wait to meet her again this week.

Today I got to help with a  ministry that works with kids in the area. We teach them, we love them, and we minister God overflowing heart to them. Today I was informed that a good amount of these kids are not going to school and will likely never go back. God’s own children growing up without an education fully vulnerable for who knows what.

God has been breaking my heart for His people, His precious people, the ones that are lost and don’t know their magnificent Creator.


“There is no greater love than this to lay down ones life for a friend” John 15:13


He’s given me a whole new revelation of this verse. He laid down His life, His comforts, His everything so that I may know His heart, so that they may know His heart.  I feel this passion stirring deep in my heart to lay down my life, my comforts, my desires, for these girls, for the lost, for the prostitutes, for the trafficked, for the hurting, the orphans, the abused, the convicts, the abandoned, & the broken- whoever God calls me to. He’s chasing them and they don’t even know it. When Jesus whispers His heart for me into my ears, I melt a little more each time but then He says, you know my heart, you know this truth, but they still do not. He laid down His life for them and I’m prepared to do the same.

“I can see your heart eight billion different ways. Every one a precious child to save. If you laid down your life to love them so will I” -Hillsong United



In two weeks I’ll be heading to Thailand to continue the call to reaching the lost and fighting against human trafficking. Would you prayerfully consider partnering with what God is doing there? You can use the link below if you feel led to give.

https://www.grouprev.com/indonesiapt2

YES

Whatever it takes, whatever it costs, I live for one thing and its Jesus


It’s so crazy to be back in Bali where it all started just a little over a year ago. Last summer I left the country for the first time and flew to Bali, Indonesia because God told me to. Today I am back in Bali after being to 13 different countries. I could have never imagined what that one, simple “yes” brought about. My “yes” to go to an interest meeting about a missions trip to Indonesia eventually led to this crazy adventure I call my life.

I spent some time on the beach today reflecting on this past year and what has happened since the last time I was here in Bali. SO much has happened its simply incredible. I am a completely new person, with a completely new love, understanding, and adoration for the King. He has set me free, broken me down, built me up, and broken me down yet again- and I love it, I wouldn’t have it any other way. He has called me by my true name-His daughter, knowing nothing else matters but my belonging to Him. Last time I was in Bali, I prayed for someone for the first time, and now its my passion to spread His name and pray for His people. It’s so crazy, what once made me so uncomfortable and scared is now where I come alive. A year ago I  don’t think I had ever shared the gospel with anyone, but now I cant seem to go a week without letting it spill out of my mouth to the person next to me at the coffee shop. Its my joy. In the past year I have both cried and laughed more than I ever have in my life. I’ve met some of the most God-fearing and Jesus loving people I’ve ever known. I’ve let the cross break me anew each morning as I fall more and more in love with Jesus even though I didn’t know it was possible. I’ve married Jesus, become best friends with Holy Spirit, and experienced God as the most kind and caring Father my soul could ever need. I’ve hitchhiked, I’ve road tripped, and I’ve been on almost 40 flights. I’ve slept on church floors, airport floors, and storage closets. and its been the best! God has given me the best friendships and memories I could never deserve. A year ago I hadn’t left America, now God has taken me to 4 continents. And it all started with a very simple ‘yes’.

and boy am I ready for another year of saying ‘YES’ to His call.

YES to diving deeper into His love and His name

YES to taking risks

YES to the challenges

YES to the things that make me uncomfortable

YES to letting Him unravel me more and more everyday

YES to new adventures

YESSSSSSSS to reaching the lost

YES to discipling the saved

YES to loving the orphans

YES to laying down my life & rights so others might hear the truth of their Creator’s love for them.

YES YES YES

I am completely ruined for the ordinary and its best feeling ever.



There is no greater joy than to love You with all I have
No greater love than this, than to lay down my life
‘Cause I have found a love that is worthy of all I have
I’m giving all I am for this pearl of great price

I cannot deny where You lead me is the narrow road
And I’ll take any step to go where You go
The fire in Your eyes has caught me in a sweet escape
There is no turning back, forever my heart will say that I lay it all down -Lindy Conant

(yall should check out her music just sayin)