In the last three months I have been to 12 countries, flown on 24 flights, and haven’t slept in the same place for more than 2 weeks at a time. During these travels there have been times when it’s hard to find God, hard to feel Him, and hard to continue honestly. There’s times when direction is the hardest thing to find, and clarity seems non existent. Times when I begin to wonder if this is where I am suppose to be, if this is truly the life God has called me to. But He’s always there pointing me in the right direction, calling me back to Him, and drawing me closer to Him than ever. He is my north, constant and true, never changing and never will. As long as I keep my eyes fixed on Him as He guides my heart to match His heart. His heart for His people, for me, for us all to know Him, for my present, and my future. He shows me time after time that I can rely on Him to be true, to be there as He helps me not be shaken by this wavering world, but held in His unwavering hands, constant in my chasing after true north. He will guide me, shepherd me, all I have to do is follow-open and willing for Him to take me on my wildest adventure yet, whatever it may look like.
God has been teaching me a lot about truth, and my passion for others to know the Truth and His mighty love for them. For people to know their identity in Jesus, that He has taken everything on the cross so we can be free. Free from shame, guilt, fear, and all the hardships from our past. The truth is that we are not meant to carry any of that, it’s too heavy, it’ll crush us, which is why Jesus took it for us. The truth is that God’s love for us is so extravagant, we can’t even fathom it. He is proud of us, proud to call each one of us His child. He brags about us, isn’t that crazy? Before we’ve done anything, He is pleased. The truth is that he is our true north, the one that if we follow Him, we will be led where He wants us which is ultimately closer and closer to Him. A future so great we could not create on our own. A security in Him we could only dream about. The truth is that I’m so in love with Jesus and so in love with this freedom that I cannot keep quiet, I can’t not go. There are so many people out there that don’t know this love, this freedom, this truth; I can’t not tell.
Now I have no idea what this passion will lead to, but He will guide my heart, dreams, and passions, to align with His, and when I need to know, He will make sure I know.
“my times are in your hands…” PS 31:15