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“From head to heart you take me on a journey of letting go and getting lost in you” 

This week has been such a journey of getting lost in God and it has been my absolute favorite. Man,God has done some real good work in my heart: digging deep, healing, and filling it back up with truth. God taught me so much about Him being my perfect Father and what that means for me. I’ll be honest, while the Holy Spirit is my best friend and Jesus is my lover, at the beginning of this week I did not feel like I knew the Heavenly Father at all. It scared me and I told Him that and like always, He came and met me right where I was. He did ask my permission to dig deep into my heart to find the root cause of this issue and knowing that even though it might be very painful, I knew He would not ask me unless it was time and it was for my good. So I handed over the keys so He could do what He needed to do. God revealed some stuff I had “forgotten” about or better yet choice to forget about. It sucked a lot and it hurt a lot, but God is so good like always and gently swept me into His love and showed me who I am to Him. Ugh He is so good its insane. He told me to rest and just be His daughter. As I kept telling Him I didn’t know how to do that and He gave someone a picture to give to me, and it was the most beautiful thing. I was dancing with God my Father, and I was standing on His toes like a child and we danced as I clung to Him and became totally reliant on Him. He was leading the dance and guided us the whole time- all I had to do was  hold close to Him. He is so sweet and wonderful. All I have to do is stay close to Him and cling to Him and He will lead and guide me with a joyful, affectionate, and devoted heart. Its crazy that as much as I am devoted to our relationship, He is so much more devoted. He showed me in another vision how excited He is to cheer me on, and how He brags about me, how He is so so proud to call me His daughter. How cool is that? I can trust Him. I can trust Him to gently carry my heart. I can trust that He is not gonna hurt me. I can trust that His love has no strings attached. I can trust that He will love and treat me with perfect fatherly love. I can trust that all I have to do is be a daughter, rest in His arms, and He will teach me the rest. I can trust that as much as I enjoy spending time with Him, He enjoys spending time with me that much more. As much as I love His presence, He loves my presence more. I can trust that He really does care how my day is and how I am doing. I can trust that I do not need to fear anything because His love is perfect. I can trust that taking care of me is a joy and not a burden. I can trust Him and I will trust Him. He is my good Father, my Abba, and I belong to Him.

This is perfect love. 

This is Fatherly love. 

God the Father in love with me. 

This love I can trust. 

“I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” Jeremiah 31:3

I have been so lost in Jesus that I have lost track of time! My time here in Norway is quickly coming to a close and I will be traveling with a group of people from the school to go and bless others.